Over the last little while, I have had some unfortunate events happen in my life and to some very close people. I tend to think more on the negative side (I know I shouldn't!) because when something negative happens, I'm not THAT disappointed. However, these things that have happened to me have literally just knocked me down and have made me feel so tiny and small, it hurt. There were days when I wouldn't stop crying and I wouldn't want to socialize with anyone. But that's how I deal with things, I keep to myself and don't like to bother other people with my small problems.
It took me a while to be "okay" and my mom had made a very valid point - that everyone has been in my position at least once in their life and it's all how I handle the situation and carry myself. She's right. Instead of being stuck in my negative frame of mind, I got up and did something about it. Slowly but surely, things are starting to turn around and HOPEFULLY, they continue to get better. I've realized that I am tired of starting over and ending up in the same position, so this time around, things are going to be different. I am not going to think more on the negative side, I am going to emit positive energy and thoughts, that way the universe sends positivity back. I am going to enjoy things more and do things that make ME happy instead of trying to please people who could really care less if I do them or not.
There are a few things coming up that I am SO excited about and it's been a while since I have felt excited about something. I am going to my first fitness expo next weekend with my brother. Even though I am not a fitness competitor, I think attending this will have some great benefits and definitely give me the motivation that I have been looking for. I also have a family vacation coming up and it's been some time since we've gone away. We are heading to Conneticut, Boston and New York. I know it's not an all inclusive on the beach, but it's away from the city, from work, from having to cook and clean and just able to relax and have fun. The last time we did this trip, my mind was elsewhere and I don't think I fully appreciated it for what it was. This time, NOPE, none of that! I am going to FULLY enjoy this and enjoy myself - which means, if I want to have a beverage or two, I WILL, if I want to not eat as healthy for a few days, I WILL and if I don't want to worry about getting into the gym, I WON'T. Then ... after that, Brantley Gilbert in July. I am SO excited to see him! And again, my state of mind will be completely different than the last concert I was at.
It's funny how our mind and our thoughts affect our lives so I am looking forward to seeing what happens with this change of mind. Realistically, I will get knocked down again and again, because well, that's life .. but I just have to pick myself up, dust myself off and get right back to it.
PS. Another thing I promise to try - getting better at this blogging thing!!